ok so my title pretty much sums up how I'm feeling- tired and achy.
My feet are killing me and I sit for about 90% of my day. What's up with that? My shoulders and neck hurts. My head hurts. I'm tired.
I've been up since 5:30am. Work is wearing me out. I'm stressed. My house is dirty. Just finished making dinner and its in the oven. I'm hungry.
All I can think about is how the heck am I supposed to be a mom if I'm this wore out without a kid. How to be a mom, wife, working professional, cook, maid, etc....and get sleep and be in a good mood? I dunno. This morning all I could think was when the baby is here I will probably have to get up atleast an hour earlier for work and I'll be running on less sleep. And I'm feeling pressured about breastfeeding. I'm definitely going to do it. But I think it's going to be hard juggling work and pumping at every break and lunch. And don't forget that I drive an hour to work so I guess I'll need a cooler to bring my pumped breast milk home in. I keep hearing you should breast feed as long as possible because it's so good for your baby and basically you're the devil himself if you don't keep it up for a year. I feel like that mind set is setting me up to feel like a failure if on only do it for a few months or so. I dunno...the plan is to do it. Heck the plan is to be a great mom but we'll see.
I get stressed out about things I know nothing about and I stress about change in general- maybe that's why I didn't vote for Obama (I'm against change. ha). But really I'm tired and my brain is wacky.
Sorry about the rambling. I'm just in a weird mood. I need food and sleep.
Was that the oven timer I hear?
Well hello chicken potpie....
Sorry you're achy and tired :( Being a Mom isn't easy, and it's much less rewarding when you can't even see him/her!!! I hope it gets better soon! About the breastfeeding: One of B's pediatricians acts so surprised everytime we go and I say I'm still bfing. It's really not as common as the "super bfing" people would like it to be. I say try it once, if you want, try it again, and just bf as long as it works for you. Baby H would rather have a happy, less tired Mom and formula, than a tired Mom and breast milk. I vote just to try and nurse morning and night when you go back to work. NO WAY I would pump at work, but perhaps I'm a bad Mom :/
ReplyDeleteP.S. Chicken Potpie sounds Delish! And, Happy 19 weeks!!!
Here is my mindset about breastfeeding. I am going to try it for a week or so. If it doesn't work for me, then I'll just pump. If that becomes too time consuming/stressful, then formula here I come. I don't want my first experience with Jake around being stressful and making myself feel like a horrible mother. Some people can do it, some people its just no for.
ReplyDeleteHang in there girl.
My vote? You are a GREAT mom already, because you love Baby H so much and are so concerned and ready to make the right decisions for him/her (so close to finding out!) already! You'll know what the right decisions are for YOU and for him/her, because it's different for everyone. I'll admit, I'm a "19 Kids and Counting", Duggar Family-addict... the lady has like a million gallons of pumped breast milk in a freezer, but the newest one is lactose intolerent. Sometimes what "everyone says" is the best thing" isn't the best thing for everyone. It will be your decision for what is best for you, for however long is best for you. Love you!!!! (/taken with a grain of salt, from the non-mommy/non-mommy-to-be =P)
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